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About Me
multi-tasking is my middle name. fashion is my passion. Red is the color that i love. Being literate is also part of my life. plus i am a realistic person 8D!
argh....another day went by just like that.... *sigh* didn't manage to do anything useful then just sitting i front of my laptop in my little comfort zone. SPM is drawing nearer and nearer, still i have many things i am not prepared for. I have been through two horrible years, one was this year and the other one was last year. This two years just isn't the best years of my life, i've been better especially when my god-mother and god-grandparents are still living and breathing. They're pretty supportive of me, always there listening and telling the rights things at the right moment. I am not saying my real mom doesn't do so, but she just over does it. I will have to admit that my god-mother spoils me alot, i practically get what i want. Problem is, she (my real mom) just tries too hard. I know that i will have to let things pass by, let the dead be in peace and so on. But this just too sudden.
You see, i lived with my god-mother since i was a toddler till i reached my adolescent years. Time passed really, really fast. It's been 5 years since her death. I am not entirely sure which part of her got infected by cancer, hmmmm.....perhaps the ovary. Not entirely sure, wasn't what i was truely bothered about. -coffstillyoungcoff- Ahaha, who would want to bother about this kinda stuff when they have something more interesting to bother about. [coughnotmecough]. It just really irritates me when i found out that my mum didn't allow me to visit her. Saying my karma was bad or something, [traditional chinese believes that when one's karma isn't too good, going to the hospital will be a bad trip, such as meeting spirits and stuff] so she didn't allow me to go, for that very one lousy reason. AND for that i didn't get to see her the one last time before her passing. Which is what i regretted, and i doubt this regret will ever be lifted from me. It's hard to do so, seeing that she was the closest person to me.
On the contuary, i won't say i am actually a very religious person. I do go temples and stuff, but for all i know it's not entirely my cup of tea. I have a really bad nose, i sneeze almost everytime the incense in near my nose. >__>;; probably one the reasons i dislike going to big temples on big days. i remember that i nearly fainted once because of those smokes. [ hey i have asthma ]
*sigh* i do admit being a lil too weak at times like this, but crying ain't going to bring the dead back alive, so.....i guess i will just have to let it go, but only time can tell when. Gods forbids this, i am sure of it. But i guess i should be happy, that i am still alive and breathing now. Let's hope everyone and i will get a better tomorrow. =D
