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Thursday, January 22, 2009

Brawling my Eyes out...

I just watched Jibeuro also known as The Way Home a Korean Movie on youtube.com (please prepare a tissue box beside you when you watch this), even though the videos were cut short to fit into youtube's limited 11 minutes. I first saw the DVD in Moviemagic 1Utama, but never had the slightest hint what was it about so i ignored the DVD, until i saw a member of MYB forum post in under her Movies that you much watch, i decided to youtube it. I swear to god, this show might seem very boring, infact i am going to be honest. It's is a little boring, but it made me brawl my eyes out and it touched my soul and heart to it's very core. It's a story about a young city boy who was forced to live with his maternal grandmother in the rural village she was living, due to his mum's unsuccessful business. She left him in the care of her mother as she searched for a new job. Despite his lack of respect and impatience towards her, she never gave up trying to please him and never stopped showing him love and kindness.

The was this time where his gameboy ran out of battery and he was throwing tantrums (breaking her pots and throwing her only shoes! I feel like slapping the hell outta him when i saw that. It broke my heart into pieces when she had to climb up the rocky mountain shoe-less and carrying two heavy buckets of water! I was crying like mad.), complaining and whining to his grandmother, even he already knew she doesn't have the money to do so. So he stole her ornament hairstick and attempted to trade it for the batteries, but he failed because it was a rural town and they didn't have the battery size he wanted. After that he went home, sad and angry, but when he saw his old grandmother standing in the stoney pathway awaiting his return. Quietly trailing his grandmother's back to their small little atap house.

There was also anothe incident (also the most tear jerking and the most touching part) whereas he went to the market with his grandmother to sell melons, oh i forgot to mention, his grandmother is a mute but she is not deaf though, ahahah if you were wondering. She was trying hard to persuade passerbys to buy the melons from her, the boy was fighting back his tears, but that didn't stop there, after selling the melons (i think) she used the money to buy him a pair of new sneakers and bought him noodles while she sips on her green tea (i would feel as guilty as hell if this ever happened, i would rather stay in my out shoes and eat raw leaves than to do this). After that they boarded the bus, when suddenly her spoiled grandson asked her to buy him 'chocopie'a chocolate snack. So she went down from the bus and sacrificed the money for the bus ride to buy her grandson the sweets he wanted. Little that he knew, when he arrived in the bus stand he waited for her return. The next bus came but there was no sight of her, so he waited again, not very long later he sees her walking slowly and huffing for breath on the dusty road back to their home, holding the heavy package that she had before going to the market. Fighting back his tears, he quickly went to his grandmother and helped her carry the heavy package home, he also saved the last piece of the snack in her bag.

Yet another small part of the movie after the market incident, whereas he was asked to do a favor for his grandmother, she also passed him his gameboy but only to be rejected by him saying that there no battery. So she wrapped the gameboy with a paper, thinking it was useless he just stuffed it into his pocket. She placed the new sneakers she bought for him beside him, but only to be kicked away by him. He wore his old shoes and begin his journey to the town nearby. He fell halfway through the journey, scraping his knee is progress. Wiping his tears, he took out the wrapped package, only to reveal his gameboy and money to buy new batteries for it. Touched, he started crying until he arrived back where he saw his worried grandmother standing in the usual pathway, awaiting his return. He started crying loudly when he saw her, not because of his injuries but rather because of his grandmother kindness. His grandmother wiped his tears and inspected his injuries and then passed him a letter stating that his mother is coming to bring him back to Seoul.

Picking up the paces, he knew he won't be able to see his grandmother for a while. He quickly taught her how to write and communicate, and the both of them started crying midway through the teaching (i joined them too!). Then after his grandmother went to bed, he started helping her thread the threads through her needles so that she could sew her broken shoes when she needed too. He also drew some stuff on his favorite postcards.

Then the day of the departure finally came, when the three of them including his mother awaits the arrival of the next bus. The spoke about something, but the boy was reluctant to look at his grandmother or even speak to her. When the bus arrived, his mother boarded the bus followed by him, but he quickly came down and passed her a stack of stuff and went up the bus sitting infront of his mother. The old grandmother went to the window next to his seat and tapped the window ( i cried the most this part ), but he continued to ignore her. But when the bus started moving, he quickly ran to the back of the bus and said "I'm Sorry" with a sigh language and waved her goodbye. After that scene you could see the old grandmother opening the package her grandson gave to her, revealing all his favorite postcard addressed to him. They're all written and drawn on with different pictures and wordings (Like I miss you, Grandmother's Sick and so on), and the show ended showing the old grandmother walking back to her atap house.


This show has won the South Korea Movie awards, and is directed by one of the few female directors in Korea. This show is also dedicated to all the grandmothers out there.

I am deeply touched by this show that everytime i think about it, my eyes starts to turn red and watery. I also called my grandmother right after i watched this, she has always wanted me to give her phone calls but i was too occupied with my own things i sometime ignore her. Which i am Guilty of, even though i am not good at saying I Love you directly to her, i changed the subject by asking whether she is watching the televison as her favorite program was about to start. I was somehow able to talk without letting her know i was also crying at the same time. I don't want the same feeling of guilt to take over me again, and even though i am not good at saying the words Love you straightforward-ly i am able to show it out through various ways, which i am quite proud of. I have lost my god-mother and the last thing i remember was asking her to get me something real expensive, i could totally relate to this boy as i was almost the same as he was. But I learnt my lesson when i lost her for good. So i am not going to let this chance slip by me as it did before. I am glad i met my god-grandparents before that passed away. Although i find it hard to let go, i am happy that they don't have to suffer anymore. May God Guide them through.

Grandma I love you.

PS. This show was also a show that shows children abandoning their old parents to survive on their own, so please don't do something so cruel. Think like this before you do something vulgar and regret your whole life ahead of you, "Do i want my children to treat me the same way?", "Who raised you up when you were little?", "Who showed you love and patience?", "Who gave you support when all hope is lost?".

So what are you waiting for? Call/Hug your grandmothers and grandfathers (and of course your parents) and tell them how much you love them before the chances slip away, as there is no such thing as turning back time.

With <3,
Gwen

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Missha's New Shiny BB Cream

I will admit that i have entered the Missha boutique so many times that the promoter went, Oh it's you again! XD I must really marry the person who build One Utama, ahaha. Anyways I have already made a few visits to Missha's store after hearing from Connie that the Missha M B.B Cream is very good. I bought a small tub from her too, but after i went for a skin check, the specialist told me that i needed a sun-block for my face. Being a sun lover myself, i do not mind being tan but having pigmentation growing is a little on a problem. After seeing my mum and my aunts splurging on products to remove them, i told myself "Prevention is better than cure". With that in mind, i went into TBS first to check on the SPF moisterizers and i loved the Vitamin C one the best among the three available, but the hefty price tag turned me down. RM79 for a small 50ml moisterizer, which is not even tinted....definitely not worth it.

So i marched to Bobbi Brown after that, yet another dissapointment. The wonderful price tag killed me instantly (being a freeloader myself i won't complain much XD), and i checked every other skincare outlet in Jusco but most of them are extremely pricey. I liked the biotherm one though, but it's a little too sparkly for my taste. So i mustered all my bravery, since i always enter missha and the same SA will always be the same one. She's pretty nice though, she recommended the Shiny B.B Cream which is about 85 ringgit, i thought it seemed ok because it's tinted and it has SPF but the word 'shiny' made me think again. She applied some sample on my face and the results was fabulous! It's not too shiny and it covers the redness of my cheeks. Which is good, i also bought the Rose Water Oil Cleansing Water which is quite good for a 30++ price tag. I have tried Shu Uemura's but i won't compare because the brand says it all. But being a cheapo myself, i would say that this is a Good Value Buy, it's worth the money. I will post up the pictures of the Before and After when my digital camera is functioning (my phone camera is kinda blurry, sorry).

PLUS, i got my Lomo camera! Ahaha i bought Holga instead of Colorsplash though. Holga looks more tempting, but the colorsplash is nice too....XD i will just need to save up money to get the colorsplash and some accesories for the Holga camera and again i will post up pictures, hopefully by tomorrow.

Thanks for reading,
With <3
Gwen

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Talk about bad luck

I have never had such a horrible luck any other day than today. I broke my pocket mirror midnight today, and i had to pick up the pieces of shards with a flash light to avoid waking my grandma up. I used my mini vaccum to pick the smaller pieces and after that i went to bed. Then when morning came my phone alarm died, i missed the trip to kepong with my friend and her mum only to find out that my favorite thrift store opened after a long hiatus. Isn't that great? My friends mum won't be going there for a while, Sigh....

Then i continued my daily chores which includes cleaning the toilet since my pet budgie always dirties the floor with his seed husks, and right after i finish cleaning, he flew and knocked his ceramic plate of his cage...Joy...and it just HAD to be filled with husks @___@;;

Next comes cleaning my study table. My mum decided to hire a feng shui master to check whether the directionality of my room is correct. To my surprise he asked my mum to buy me a bed since i couldn't sleep well because of the filthy air coming in from the bathroom! >__>;; Dude i wash my toilet everyday what was that supposed to mean? He said not only it was bad for my health it was also the cause of my sleepless nights.

'Tsk, who the hell would buy that?' I though inside my heart, only to hear a shocking reply that almost made me faint in sight, my mum asked him what kinda bed i should have...Jebus...*grumbles* And so, my mum moved my sister's single bed frame to my room (after a loooong consideration and also some quarrels) i decided to use my sister's one instead of getting some cheapo steel/metal bed frame and is going to creak whenever i swift. Now the condition worsen because i love to turn and i do kung-fu on the bed....now the space is so limited and that i am afraid to fall off the bed. I can't not sleep in peace. =____=;; Wonderful, just wonderful. The feng shui master also said that i should add four shoots of miniature lucky bamboo sticks in my study desk, and she managed to get some in the evening and she placed it inside my favorite vase. She left the vase inside my bathroom sink, so when i wanted to take it out, it slipped off my fingers and down in went. Another Ceramic product has broke. YAY! Streak number 3! Lemme hear some clapping!

Thank god, i haven't broke another thing for the pass two hours...I am going to bed now, to minus the risk of breaking anything else, let's just hope i don't fall of the bed breaking my own bones in the process * cross fingers and shrugs*

*EDIT*
Whoops i forgot to add that i am getting a Colorsplash Lomo Camera this tuesday XD *excited*

Anyways, Goodnight ladies and gentlemen!
Thanks for reading
With <3
Gwen

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Shopping SPREEE Grabs ~ and also minor rants

Hello again! I was too lazy to post the pass few days, mroe over i didn't do much except go out to 1u for an mini outing with Jilly. Though it was quite short, i would say it's really fun! Plus, plus!~ I finally got my leather jacket look-a-like from ZARA~! *jumps in joy*
as promised i took the picture specially for you Manda! (Wubb You to death~)



(isn't it a beau? XD I am perasan-ing so let me be!)



I also bought this electric blue knitted military inspired jacket from Amour in Damansara Utama. The color is gorgeous.


I finally found a proper brush cleaner for my make-up brushes. >__>;;
They're so eeky when i washed them, the clear blue liquid turned glittery orange and brown <__>, (thank gawd i don't use make-ups everyday).

>__> Well i would say my luck ran dry when i met 'some one i didn't want to meet' when i went to 1u, sadly that very person worked beside both my favorite food outlet and accessory store ( talk about bummers ). When i ate there will Jilly i saw one of my ex-schoolmates working there, ahaha and also....that person...I am not trying to rude or anything but...I know 'that person' has a errr.....i won't call it crush anymore but rather...clingy... which is a feeling i don't like having at all. If i were in a relationship with someone, i wouldn't mind if he calls up to check up or something, but i, honestly speaking wouldn't like it if he spams my phone with calls. It makes me feel that either i am giving him this insecure feeling or he is just simply over-processive. Maybe it's just me i don't know but...i really, really hope 'he' understands.

I do feel guilty though, i mean...since there's so easy way to tell someone that you don't see 'him' more than a friend. I treat him as a good friend, but not any further....I am sorry but...i don't want to have a relationship based on lies, and starting a relationship like this simply hurts both side of the party, which is worst. I'm very aware that 'he' has been after me for quite sometime, but showering me with phone calls just simply turns me off. I have plenty of phone calls coming in one day, more than 10 calls from my mum, at least 5 calls from my granny, 3 calls from my dad, 2 calls from my aunts, averaging 9 calls from my friends, and 3-6 calls a day from him. I mean come on, i have a life too you know, i don't just simply pick up calls and talk and talk all day long. Personally, i see myself as an very outgoing person, and shopping is one of my favorite activities, and after that comes running, reading and D.I.Ying. I find that i am always showered with loooong phone calls from my mum and aunts, and i don't think i need it from 'you'. I am really sorry but, i just see you as a really good friend, and also i would appreciate it if you also see me a girl and respect me by not touching me. I feel extremely uncomfortable when you do so... So if you do happen to read this, please don't get mad that i didn't tell you in person, as i am better expressioning my feelings with words, & i am also sorry that i agreed to be your prom partner but i didn't danced with you at all, i was just trying my best to give you a signal saying that you are just not the one i am interested in *dodges flying daggers* I am sure all of you who knows me well should know who i am talking about, i know that 'he' is dead loyal but, truth indeed hurts the most ;__;

ANYWAYS today, i went for the Motor Vehicle Theorical and Mechanical Talk. To me it was dooms day there, and thank the lord i met my classmate there! Coincidently she went there alone too...and sooo the loooooooooooooooong 6 hours talk started to go by. Luckily, the second half of the class we had a better instructor who could joke well, the first one tells a joke with a straight face. >__< d=")." myself ="D.">__<;; at the same time, i got two eye mask to pamper my really stressed eyes. I haven't had a good sleep since last two weeks and my eye bags are....enormous.

Then then, when i entered Daiso, i quickly rampaged to the cosmetic section to take a look at the goodies awaiting for me to get them X__x;; ( I think i am infected with one of the most deadliest compulsive shopping syndrome ), I grabbed the nearest unoccupied basket and started hunting for goods. I took two blushers, one Hyaluronic Acid Lip Balm recommended by Connie from Skindeco ( there's another one which is the collagen one, i think it will get it on the next trip ), a sleeping eye mask, a sparkling powder and a suction thingy called the beautipon (which sucks up dirts and remaining make-up, though i am not entirely sure how it works and whether it works. But the tag removing dirts and unclog pores got my attention).

These are the goodies i bought from Daiso,


All in together here cost 30 ringgit, it seems ok for me because the nightmarket eyeshadows and mascara costed me the same price. (yes i am a cheapo, since i don't work. You simply just can't blame me *dodges rotten eggs*). The sleeping eye mask is kinda cute no? Haha it's also available is pastel blue and pink, but i liked this one better. Also i forgot to mention how lazy i was to take another picture, i added both the eye mask ( lower bottom left) and the secret slimming toe rings (left of the Lip Balm). The eye mask is not bad for 5 ringgit, though i won't say you'll see the results instantly but it brightened my dark eye bags a tiny bit. For 5 ringgit, it's a must buy! The vendor is only there during the weekends, but she will be off the ext two weeks for CNY. Her store is just next to the manicure lady. When your in front of cineleisure, just turn to your left and look for the manicure booth or the false lashes booth( the store is just opposite of the lash booth.) It's called cattle milk whitening eye mask.

I am too lazy to do swatches for the blush now, Connie bought Orange and Beige. I bought brown and orange, since Connie has done the swatch for orange, i will do the brown one and post it up real soon. I promise!

Alright, that's all for today! I have been out the whole day, i am gonna hit the sack a little bit earlier today, the tormenting image of my eyes turning into a panda's eyes is about to come true. >___>

Good night everyone
With <3
Gwen

Monday, January 12, 2009

New Year, New Post & New Resolutions

Hey there, i know i haven't been updating my blog... I know, i know i have been a real lazy girl, since SPM is done, i deserve all this lazing and slacking ;) Don't you all think so?

Anyways, I went for Sungai Wang's Countdown party on 31st December! It's was a blast! Though i won't say i had the best experience there, since random people spray artificial snow foam on your faces and you whole body. Speaking of that this random malay guy just came to me and sprayed right in my face, if i knew who he is now, he would have ended up in the hospital. He could have sprayed right into my eyes if i didn't closed it in time. Freak....

I went there around noon time with my childhood partner in crime - Joyce *glompz her*, and we did some shopping there, but before i even reached the destination where i am supposed to buy stuff i have already spend 50 ringgit in the In2It make-up warehouse sales in KL Sentral.

I picked up a few stuff there including 2 moisterizers, 2 instant eyeshadow, and 2 liquid eyeliners. All i could say that is the liquid eyeliner is really good @__@ (I have bought another bottle of it), but the only thing that turns me off, is that it takes around 60 seconds to dry. Later on in Times Square i bought a really nice Pashima....i think XD and three mini skirts....I won't say that i like them very much but they looked rather sweet, and it's a steal! Only 10 each!

The countdown was really fun at the same time really scary (really large crowd of people and a lot of Lalas and gothics, a tourist even asked the secruity guard whether there's a fashion show going on XD ), seeing that the LRT and the Star Monorails closes 2 AM sharp, i pestered Joyce and her cousin to leave before the fireworks even ended. If i could drive or own a car, i wouldn't mind going back a lil bit later...

I stayed over at Grace's house few days later, it was great! I missed her like mad, haven't seen her in about a year, sadly i only stayed for one day as collage will start the next day for her *cries*, but also thanks to this stayover, i learned how to be a lil bit more confident. Grace would tell me off when i do something wrong and vice versa. It's a shocking thing though, i use to be the one telling her to be confident for who you are, now it's the other way around XD. Regardless of reasons, i do really want to be my old self again, and this is the top priorty, and today i do feel alot better! I even gave myself a hair cut! A Androgyny style this time, and i think i look really good at it. What's better is, since i do have a wig in hand, i can go between styles! Cool eh?

Hahaha, another few of my 2009 new years' resolutions are,

- Getting in collage!
- Be a better person
- Stop being whiney!
- Love myself

Those are the top 5 priority for now. More to be added soon... i think...*smirks*

Anyways, that's all for now!
Thank you for reading! Do leave a comment, only if you want to! =D
<3 With Love,
Gwen